IFLYG

I Fuckin' Love You Guys....

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Zippy Dee Do Dah....

Yesterday, out of the blue, my lovely wife says: "Wow - that last post on your blog was depressing! Is everything ok, honey?".

I was speechless. Firstly - Wow: my wife's now reading my blog! Hi honey!! Check the archives - I've always referred to you as "my lovely wife", and I've hardly ever bitched about you! Fact!

Secondly, I didn't mean for my last post to be depressing. I'm not really depressed. I think my good mate Chocolate Makes it Better was right when he suggested that I've got "end-of-year-itis". I've taken his advice and Marley'd up a few times in the last week, and I am feeling much more festive...

It is actually sort of nice now that the year is coming to an end. It's been a very full-on year. I didn't quite meet all of my goals for 2006, but I feel like I gave it a red-hot go, and I'm happy about that. And at the end of the day, every day, I get to go home to a beautiful little house, in a fantastic neighborhood, to my lovely wife (who reads my blog and checks to make sure I am ok!) and almost-supernaturally-adorable little daughter. I've got lots of close friends and people that I care about; I've got a couple of dollars in my pocket & there's food in the fridge; Australia won back the Ashes; and life is pretty damn good.

I hope everything is going well for you - that you've got a roof over your head, and some people that you care about in your life. I hope that 2006 was good for you, and that 2007 is even better.

Happy Holidays - IFLYG!

Sunday, December 10, 2006

Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah.....

Life feels like a typhoon at the moment; so many things happening and I feel very out of control....it's been a while since I've written anything here - so I thought I'd just brain-dump:

Work is just getting crazier & crazier. I've been trying to start my own business while still working my full-time job. I'm not having a lot of luck. I have a friend with his own successful business who has offered to help me get established (i.e. - bankroll me), if I can bring in a deal. I thought I was close to scoring a very exciting opportunity recently, but I got the wind taken out of my sails (in a big way) last week, and now I'm no closer to making anything happen. Frustrating.

My full-time job is getting very full-on as the year comes to an end. I am an "ideas man", and I've been very fortunate that most of my good ideas at my current job have gotten approval, and I've secured a lot funding, and made some good things happen. The downside is that I now "own" these things, and I am getting bogged down in the details. I'm operating on way too many levels at the moment, not achieving what I want to be achieving, and it's doing my fucking head in.

I'm not sure I really like doing what I do for a living, anyway. I've had a lot of fun, and I make a decent living, and I know I shouldn't complain, but as I get older I'm starting to think that I'd like to try my hand at something else while I still can. I am becoming more and more aware that I work best when I can just unleash a flurry of creativity over the course of a few days or weeks, get a great result, and then sort of tinker around a bit until I come up with another good idea. That's sort of how I've been working for years. But it's really not a good model for a corporate/ operations type of role (which is what I am in). I've been thinking about this quite a bit lately. I think I would be much happier painting, or sculpting, or otherwise creating things. But we can't really afford the lifestyle change it would require....don't quite know what to do....

Yoyo is AMAZING. She is 18 months old now, and walking, and talking, and having tantrums, and she just gets cuter & cuter & cuter and I am so deeply, deeply in love with her. We went to the pub for lunch with a bunch of friends yesterday, and they had a jazz band in the courtyard, and Yoyo stood in front of the bandstand and danced the entire time they played. The crowd was mostly 60+, and everyone was delighted to have this curly headed little cutey dancing and running around between their legs. She mistook some old guy for her granddad, and made him pick her up for a cuddle - the look of absolute happiness on this guy's face was priceless.

The lovely wife is in Sydney for a business thing, so I get to spend some quality time with the little munchkin tonight....

Anyway, internets - I just thought I'd check in....I hope all is well with you!